I lived somehow,
medicines, pain, hopelessness, heartaches,
of my own brought me down.
Then, there was a rain,
Slow, beautifully relaxing gain.
Life never could mean
how we live to earn
or earn to live and churn.
I sat in a corner
trying in vain
But, then the smell of earth
the smell of rain,
Drew away my pain.
The pain in, the pain out.
I saw you,
Yet I would never reach you,
You would not see
For you have already seen.
Let us then be joyful,
amongst drugs for meds, the human cries,
the moaning, the beating of chests, the slapping on foreheads.
The wails, the helpless sobs, whimpering
noises, they hurt the soul even when
they were not mine. I love you
even though I know I do never see you.
I love your specs, your eyes, your presence
even when we do not meet.
Everything about you, your harmless eyes
which do not look for me.
Sad I am, yet happy I could
love, the first time your spirit arms, your
medicine smelling shirt, yet I am happy
my heart and soul found peace,
leaving behind what was not mine.
Walking with my loved ones and you.
Peaceful I stand in sad demise of others.
I am not hard but quite in peace.